Were You Jealous?

I am not a jealous person.  From time to time I might think "I wish I had ________ too."  But I don't dwell on it or fixate on it or struggle with jealousy.  I never really have.  I'm happy with what I have.

Which leads me to this Slice...

My husband was the best man in a wedding a few months back.  The matron of honor was the bride's sister.  At the reception one of our college students from church asks me:

College Student:  Were you jealous when Jay walked down the aisle with that other girl?

Me (without thinking who I was talking too... I do that a lot.  I run my hand down my side): No!  I know what I got going on here.

College Student (turns 50 shares of red... then I remember who I'm talking too): Oh... that's, um, that's good.

Another college student sitting at the table knows me better and handles me better dies laughing.

College student's girlfriends: Well, that's a good attitude to have!

Me (thinking "oh you stupid 20 year old.  Cute!  But so dumb.):  Life is to short for jealousy and insecurities.

And this is also when I remember I'm 40 years old.  I also remember the promise I made to myself to not make 20 year olds feel dumb because I hated when people older than me made me feel dumb at 20. I mean I was an adult at 20 for crying out loud!  But now, at 40, I realize I was so dumb at 20.  So very cute!  But so dumb.

I'm sure at 60 I'll think "I was so dumb at 40!"  Ha!  Such is life I guess.